I am so sorry for your loss. My condolences to him and you and his family. We're all here for you if you need us, and we totally understand. Take some time and take care *hugs*
My deepest sympathies to you mate;
No one should ever have to endure that.
Stay strong and you'll always have the support of your UMD friends no matter the content you have.
Love the "bad boy" meets "boy next door" aesthetic of your pics. (I know you're into athletic wear, but it'd be amazing to see you strip down to your birthday suit at the beginning of a session and show off that beautiful bad boy body in all its naked glory before you totally trash yourself.)